The Natural Cycle of the Creative Process
So I’ve been away for a while, re-assessing my writing goals, future and essentially what I’m doing. I’ve had a sort of writing crisis I suppose and it’s meant I’ve had to take quite a long break and re-think what I’m doing and where my goals lie.
It’s not that I don’t know what to write, or more accurately, what I should be writing, it’s more that I have found my confidence, enthusiasm and desire has been somewhere in the realms of defeatist, unenthusiastic and fear.
I know to a non writer this probably sounds like a load of arty-rubbish but those writers reading this might actually be nodding their heads in recognition.
What I really need to do, is learn that this is a part of the creative process and to just allow it to happen naturally, to not let it take over, and essentially use the time to research and find other ways to fulfil myself creatively. When I just let it take over, like I have done, I then feel bad, which makes it worse, which makes me feel worse and it’s a vicious cycle of negativity.
However, if there’s one thing I’ve learned from the inspirational Joanna Penn, it’s that I need to just embrace every aspect of the creative process and this is a part of that creative process. I need to trust that this is just something that happens to all writers and I simply need to go with it and, not become defeatist and allow it to take over.
So this is where I’ve been over the last few months, in fact it’s been so bad that I haven’t opened my Scrivener file for The Prisoner in months, I’ve had to leave it alone for a while. I tried to push too hard to finish it too fast and it just wasn’t working for me, I was trying to fast-track the natural creative process and you simply can’t do that. What it did was put me in the situation where I am now, of sending me too far into a negative mind-frame.
What I have done though, is pick up my non-fiction copywriting guide and have been working on that when I feel up to it, all-be-it not at a consistent pace, but it’s been something.
What I need to do now, is get back to a consistent daily habit of just doing a little bit to push forward with my work, stop trying to do everything too soon and just let things develop naturally.
I’ve learnt a lot over these last few months about myself, my writing and what I can and can’t achieve. I need to just accept that my writing will happen in it’s natural time frame and I can’t rush that.