So it was my birthday this week, and not just any old birthday, the big 40.
I’m not upset about it in the way I thought I might be, instead I keep wandering through my house and catching a glimpse of my cards stood proudly on the window sill with Happy 40th Birthday shouting out at me in big shiny numbers of varying colours and sizes, and I find myself thinking;
It’s not so much that I miss being 25, lord no! But I do wonder where all the years have gone. I now have a 21 year old son and it amazes me every day when my grown up children walk in the room. It really does seem like five minutes ago they were little and wouldn’t sleep. Even my youngest child is now four and a half and time is slipping away.
However, what this does also mean is that time is slipping ever closer to my launch day of the 24th April for The Prisoner.
To be honest I am surprisingly calm about it, when really I should be in a mad panic because as it stands today, the book is far from ready.
So, am I calm because I know I can do it or am I just pretending it’s not happening? If I am honest with myself I think it’s a little bit of both.
Where I am at, though, is getting the essential research elements sorted. Once this is done I can add in the last few bits that are missing and then start honing the work to a decent standard.
It is going to be a mad dash right to the last minute with this one, but I really can’t afford to spend any longer on this if I’m going to get on with the next project.
As always when you’re building something time is against you. So I find myself, with the reflection my birthday has brought, getting quite enthusiastic about the possibility of getting this book out in the world.
I am going away this weekend to quietly focus on this book, to really give it the attention it deserves, so I can get as much done as possible to help it grow into the life it deserves.
Today I am feeling positive and excited about the future. My focus for the week coming is maintaining this positivity and renewed enthusiasm.